i woke up early as 5 am

there's no excitement at all., i was that early because the call time is 7am., (can you believe that?! ugh!). we were there like quarter to 7 or something? early huh? to think that i am one of those who never gets on time haha. well its nice to think that i am early for the first time in my last day in High School haha

Graduation., this is officially my Last Day as a High School student., come to think of it, there's much more sorrow than excitement and fulfillment! and i can see everyone's feeling the same way.,

but the truth is? i really cant feel anything at all! i mean, it was all an ordinary day, ordinary ceremony, ordinary graduation rights, only that im one of the graduates and i'm gonna be participating, not just watch (well actually that's all i did except for the part where i got my diploma on stage XD)

i wanted to cry, i want everybody to cry, coz like they said! High school only happens once and this will be the best part of your life that you'll have for the rest of your life (i don't really believe this, i mean, i can still have my family! and i think that's much more fulfilling to me) but its right, it may not be the best thing that would happen to me, but it will be the most enjoyable experience in my life. i mean, you don't get yourself childish in any ways in college right? you cant skip classes, have your permanent classroom best friend, or have your classroom chair vandalized with someones name right?

High School is high school. Yes, i have indeed enjoyed it so much, with my friends, my classmates, my teachers. and were not just ordinary High school students., we are arts students.

i am keeping myself focused in the fact that graduation means goodbye., when we were about to sing our graduation songs., they were all like "ok, eto na! iyakan na talaga!". we first sung the English one. it was not very touching and then the tagalog song., we were in the middle of the song and i can see a lot crying, i really wanted to cry but i just cant! i am concentrated on the tone more than controlling my feelings ugh! i cant cry! ahe

well its all over now., well we can still see each other especially the ones ill be joining in the same school with., its just that its never gonna be the same again

the people i had with for four years, the bonding we had, i only get to be friends with those i am close with, but for the others? i guess "HI"s and "HELLO"s is ok. but i believe this is not goodbye at all, they are not just people who passed through my life, they were a part of it. i WILL see them again

GRADUATION isn't GOODBYE., its just a temporary farewell

.jummeh :j

the black book

this post is very late haha., i should have posted this one last week but i was too busy counting memories hahaha


uhm., maebelle(one of my classmates) have this black book where in we have to fill it up with our answers of her questions (i didn't care if its required or whatever XD) so i did post my answers there., though some are very confidential i just thunk its ok for everyone to know coz we're graduating anyway, secrets will soon be nonesense to me(that what i think it was) except that im having doubts what Melvin(my hs crush ever XD) would think or react if he reads it. I still took the risks though ahe.


i forgot the questions really ahe(this is what i call 'post-it-before-you-forget') haha lol! but there are questions about HS crushes, and i did write there Mel's name. And its soo weird! I think he knows already what i was writing! Know why? He kept on walking around me while im Writing. and im thinking he's trying to see it! waa! and one time, i got soo ditructed with him, i left the chair and went in the near front chairs and guess what! he was still walking around me! This time, he's pretending he's waiting or looking outside the windows NEAR ME! it was soo obvious. Then i knew he was curius and he will insist on reading it for his curiosity ebr! ugh!


and then its someones turn until i lost my guarding eyes on the book for him not to see it. but i have to leave the room for my clearance., i was soo worried about something else so eventually i forgot everything about the book and Melvin reading it. the whole Ma'am Api-it drama happen at the same day that day. i was soo not myself when i went back to the room., and he's still there. the room's already locked. He's with Von holding the book. i was still not myself and then i calmed my self realizing its gonna be soo embarassing for him to read it


i was trying to get the book but they were too possesive with it. i didnt get it plus i made blytton(my friend)suspect! and yes! he knew Mel's name was there soo he like uhm tried to spill it.


hayy and after that i guess Mel knew already., i was like 'ui pls wag nyo basahin
yung akin!' and Mel was like 'ano naman mababasa sa sinulat ni jully?' with his sarcastic voice so uhm yah., i guess he knew already ahayyy






uhm the day before the class pouting, we went to te school to meet and buy stuffs needed., surprisingly, again! he was there! and the big news was Mel read what i wrote and they saw it!. they did not tell me what his reaction was but im sure im not going to like it :( i was really regreting what i wrote there., i did wrote everything i wanted to say! hayyy., i dont know., after i knew about that i was soo thinking about it and i went to my own conclusions.






we were friends before, and now that he knew the fact that i liked him more than he think i did only as a friend, i guess it wont be the same like what we were before. we were close and i liked that, and i swear i never took our friendship as an advantage, not at all. we were friends like what he thought we were. i like him, thats all. i know he wants someone else and i mean every bword i told him when i wanted him to like her more. we're just friends and i accepted that before i liked him pa. hayy., hard yes, truth is i just cant be as close as i was to him like before, from then on, its goona be a lot different between us. if there will be a 'between us' after that. i have decided not to see him or text him ever. and since we graduated already, i might not see him again ever. hahah no no! wrong term., i mean we will not be friends like we were before.(we're in the same school XD) yeah thats the end i guess hayy


next chapter? idontknow.,



.jummeh :(

i like black

waa., huhu, i tryd to color my hair with violet., and guess what happened!!! waaa i turned out to be one of those cheap salon gays with weird colors in their hair!!! waaa [no offense] ish tlga ebr! grr


i shud have listened to my mom


--why does it always have to end up that way?! ugh!











too much for bad hair day!--more like bad hair summer! ugh!






.jummeh :/

start of nothing new XD

yey., finally im starting this account na after how many years of extinction hahah jape

i have always been so contented with fs blogs., multiply blogs

now i finally have an official blog hahaha.,

hehe ok., ill be posting stuff here almost everyday so like uhm yah., excitment much? nope hahaha!

.jummeh.