Its, weird, uhm uhm. Ahh! I don’t know how to start this!
Ishh. I don’t even know what to blog about, exactly. Well, its been a VERY busy week for me (its not even finish!). I just feel so. . ALONE!!
i feel so lonely. . and there are several reasons why I do.
1st., uhm, its not clear but I guess I MISS everyone !!
-my bestest best friend Nandry. I haven’t seen her since we got our year book last month., we’re in the same school nut I cant contact her
-my bff ate drii, well, we txt but not that much anymore, I miss the times we laugh, talk crazy. UGH I miss her!!
-classmates, all of them. I miss the scene when we’re all in the classroom. Kanina we had a quiz in history, grabe! It was soo clean! I was like imagining my high school class every time we cheat in our quizzes. Ugh!!!
-RJ, I bet his really busy about everything., I guess wala n xang tym para makinig sa drama ko., I’m starting to be not very open to him now, now that I know his situation. NAGAALALA DIN AKO SA H1N1! Hehe
-uhm, si Karl., I miss him but., a little different from the others. Uhm uhm. E w a n. I feel sad about him and I don’t know why. Parang may pinagsisisihan ako na hindi ko maexplain. And honestly, what I felt in the past, its almost coming back again. Im uhhh, like, uhh. I feel like I need him in some points of my life. Its weird buts it’s true. I mean, not like I need GOD or my family. It’s different. And I’m sad. . .coz maybe I feel like he gave up already., or should I say. . .nagsawa na xa.
-studies! Kahit n my friends na ako, and I think nakakapagaral nmn ako ng mabuti, mejo bumababa parin tingin ko sa sarili ko. There’s this voice telling me that I cant do it. they said, only few accountancy students pass so a lot would just shift to another course, wasting time and money. I don’t want to quit. But I feel like im becoming waker each day. Hayyy
- CHANGING REALITIES., maybe it is true, things change, people change. I remember one time RJ said, I shouldn’t try soo much on making myself responsible like every college student is. He didn’t say the reason but now I guess I can see it. I’m starting to be soo BORING. Like, I would rather stay home and read my books than go out with the family. Like, I want to be alone at all times and think of what do to. Maybe this “being responsible” thing isn’t the best for me. I am BORED of being BORING. And I hate myself for that.
No ones ever telling me about this yet but I can feel it myself. I am changing positively and negatively. I MISS MY OLD ME. I MISS EVRYTHING ABOUT ME BEFORE
Aaaaa!!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
first ay high!
weird weird weird
Well, I was, AS EXPECTED, L A T E !! in my first day in college haha. Fortunately, I arrived without the instructor yet hihi. That went well hehe
I was sited in the middle of the room with Steph and Let as my seatmates (and new friends hehe) they were nice really.
Well I cant blog about everything we did but all in all it was a good start for me (except for the fact that i still hate BIO and its my 1st subject for the week)
The instructors, look . . . fine, good, but I’m not sure if they're all nice. And I DONT expect they give high grades as my teachers in high school! hehe
soo, we finished our 1st 3 subjects. We were waiting for our FIL teacher. It was 15 mins yet she's still not there so some of us decided to go since our lunch break is just 30mins! But some did not so we waited for 15mins more. It was 12 noon already so we just went out not caring if others won’t. We looked for any place to eat outside (with my new friendS) hehehe
We came back 1pm for the next subject and then me and Let went out to meet Jakejake. We were together for our 3hrs break. we went in so many places hehe! That’s why we were late for the last subject! PE!
Guys from our block were separated from us. we arrived 30mins before the time haha! And there were certain punishment for late comers. it was to do an on-the-spot presentation. haha! Let sung and I kinda did some interpretative dance of her song! hahaha! it was soo humiliating! but they enjoyed it, same as the instructor so, it was fun, i think hehehe! soo much! for first day high!!!
Well, I was, AS EXPECTED, L A T E !! in my first day in college haha. Fortunately, I arrived without the instructor yet hihi. That went well hehe
I was sited in the middle of the room with Steph and Let as my seatmates (and new friends hehe) they were nice really.
Well I cant blog about everything we did but all in all it was a good start for me (except for the fact that i still hate BIO and its my 1st subject for the week)
The instructors, look . . . fine, good, but I’m not sure if they're all nice. And I DONT expect they give high grades as my teachers in high school! hehe
soo, we finished our 1st 3 subjects. We were waiting for our FIL teacher. It was 15 mins yet she's still not there so some of us decided to go since our lunch break is just 30mins! But some did not so we waited for 15mins more. It was 12 noon already so we just went out not caring if others won’t. We looked for any place to eat outside (with my new friendS) hehehe
We came back 1pm for the next subject and then me and Let went out to meet Jakejake. We were together for our 3hrs break. we went in so many places hehe! That’s why we were late for the last subject! PE!
Guys from our block were separated from us. we arrived 30mins before the time haha! And there were certain punishment for late comers. it was to do an on-the-spot presentation. haha! Let sung and I kinda did some interpretative dance of her song! hahaha! it was soo humiliating! but they enjoyed it, same as the instructor so, it was fun, i think hehehe! soo much! for first day high!!!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
R'meo and jullyET: my version CHAPTER 4
Romeo and Juliet is a romantic novel but this time, my R’meo and jullyET is all about how can friendship be as puissant as romance. What they felt was just love far a friend or more than that, as brother/sister. It was very clear for R’meo that jullyET isn’t matured enough to handle relationships. He was always there to guide her in everything. JullyET, though she is very good in hiding her feelings, she’s still weak inside. She can’t handle a thing that’s why R’meo’s always there for her. R’meo, though he’s very smart in every thing, one thing he always needed, love. He almost had the impeccable life anyone could ever want, except that his family isn’t always there. He grew up strong because of that but who would never need a family? JullyET was the only one he felt family. They needed each other, as friends, as family.
They kept everything secret. Every night, R’meo climbs up to her room to help her out with her studies and then go out, walk, talk, with his bike and their blades and roam around the subdivision. And every time people get to suspect things about them both, they always have cover-ups. JullyET dates other guys; R’meo still joins clubs and outside orgs. Everything was planned just to cover their relationship.
But it wasn’t happy ending yet, they have handled the school problems, the program wars, they thought everything was hidden, but thorns started growing in their perfect friendship. Nina, R’meo’s older sister, knew about them. R’meo loves taking pictures and he collected a lot of jullyET’s and their pictures together. Nina saw everything. She never interfered with her brother’s life, ever. But she thought jullyET and R’meo were lovers and wants to stop what they have. She thought about what would happen to jullyET if R’meo continues seeing her. She transferred R’meo to another school, hoping that would help. She also had connections with some of the ballet schools in town and gave jullyET more opportunities so she can be busy and forget about R’meo. Her plan was very successful, not knowing that R’meo and jullyET still got ways of communicating. She left town with her clear conscious that nothing will happen again.
R’meo and jullyET knew her plans but they stayed strong, not knowing it was just the start of their misery.
They kept everything secret. Every night, R’meo climbs up to her room to help her out with her studies and then go out, walk, talk, with his bike and their blades and roam around the subdivision. And every time people get to suspect things about them both, they always have cover-ups. JullyET dates other guys; R’meo still joins clubs and outside orgs. Everything was planned just to cover their relationship.
But it wasn’t happy ending yet, they have handled the school problems, the program wars, they thought everything was hidden, but thorns started growing in their perfect friendship. Nina, R’meo’s older sister, knew about them. R’meo loves taking pictures and he collected a lot of jullyET’s and their pictures together. Nina saw everything. She never interfered with her brother’s life, ever. But she thought jullyET and R’meo were lovers and wants to stop what they have. She thought about what would happen to jullyET if R’meo continues seeing her. She transferred R’meo to another school, hoping that would help. She also had connections with some of the ballet schools in town and gave jullyET more opportunities so she can be busy and forget about R’meo. Her plan was very successful, not knowing that R’meo and jullyET still got ways of communicating. She left town with her clear conscious that nothing will happen again.
R’meo and jullyET knew her plans but they stayed strong, not knowing it was just the start of their misery.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
R'meo and jullyET: my version CHAPTER 3
They are now 3rd year high school students. Still the same, their “friendship” staying strong yet hidden. Everything was perfect until the school concert. One thing R’meo really likes besides academics is music so he decided to form a band with his classmates and joined the concert. JullyET had a band participating in the concert too. So they both competed in the battle of the bands. Everyone knew how good jullyET’s band is, that’s why everyone’s expecting them to win. But the science program had R’meo’s band which they believed would be better. And which band won? It was R’meo’s. All the students were shocked about it. Some say it was all a deal because the judges were in the science program’s side. Outside the school, his band was bragging about it knowing that the men of jullyET’s band were there. They were starting to fight. R’meo tried to get his self away from the fight but Tybalt, the lead guitarist of the band and the superior musician of the arts program, started insulting him. At first he didn’t mind at all but Tybalt started insulting R’meo’s brother, a very well known musician in the school who ended up studying in US. R’meo lost his control over his anger and fought with them. The school guards saw them and were sent to the principal’s office. Both sides were suspended.
The program wars made R’meo and jullyET set apart. JullyET’s mentor and co-artists knew about how often she meets with him. They both have no choice but to separate.
It had been months, they missed each other but they kept what they feel and started moving on. JullyET met other men in the other regions, same artists as she is. Its not official relationship or whatever but jullyET tried dating other men in favor of their mentor. On the other side, R’meo concentrated on his studies like before. He was often the school representative in many academically related contests and brought so many honors for the school.
It’s almost a year since they last talked about separating. JullyET have been so curious about things and tried it. She had past relationships since R’meo while started dating girls from other schools. It was even hard to imagine how they have known each other before.
One night, she broke up with her current “boyfriend” for he was after all a jerk. R’meo and his family just moved to a new home near jullyET’s. She was on her blades when she saw R’meo with his bike roaming around the nearest subdivision where jullyET lives. He noticed her eyes, like he never saw it in pain before. JullyET, as always tried to hide what she felt and tried to open a normal talk with him. R’meo had to ignore her but he felt something looking in her eyes. He just tried to be as friendly as he can be with her, until he had enough. He asked her what happened and why she’s in deep pain. And as expected she denied what he thought she was. But of all people, R’meo is the only one who can make her spill out what’s inside her.
They went to a mountain near the subdivision. He made jullyET shout and cry at the top of his anger. It was more than the break up. She can’t resist but open up everything to him. Since then, they trusted each other again. R’meo realized how jullyET needs him, like an older brother or something. Every time jullyET felt bad about something, R’meo has always been there until they both got used to it, like they needed each other. It was pure friendship, like what they were before.
The program wars made R’meo and jullyET set apart. JullyET’s mentor and co-artists knew about how often she meets with him. They both have no choice but to separate.
It had been months, they missed each other but they kept what they feel and started moving on. JullyET met other men in the other regions, same artists as she is. Its not official relationship or whatever but jullyET tried dating other men in favor of their mentor. On the other side, R’meo concentrated on his studies like before. He was often the school representative in many academically related contests and brought so many honors for the school.
It’s almost a year since they last talked about separating. JullyET have been so curious about things and tried it. She had past relationships since R’meo while started dating girls from other schools. It was even hard to imagine how they have known each other before.
One night, she broke up with her current “boyfriend” for he was after all a jerk. R’meo and his family just moved to a new home near jullyET’s. She was on her blades when she saw R’meo with his bike roaming around the nearest subdivision where jullyET lives. He noticed her eyes, like he never saw it in pain before. JullyET, as always tried to hide what she felt and tried to open a normal talk with him. R’meo had to ignore her but he felt something looking in her eyes. He just tried to be as friendly as he can be with her, until he had enough. He asked her what happened and why she’s in deep pain. And as expected she denied what he thought she was. But of all people, R’meo is the only one who can make her spill out what’s inside her.
They went to a mountain near the subdivision. He made jullyET shout and cry at the top of his anger. It was more than the break up. She can’t resist but open up everything to him. Since then, they trusted each other again. R’meo realized how jullyET needs him, like an older brother or something. Every time jullyET felt bad about something, R’meo has always been there until they both got used to it, like they needed each other. It was pure friendship, like what they were before.
R'meo and jullyET: my version CHAPTER 3
They are now 3rd year high school students. Still the same, their “friendship” staying strong yet hidden. Everything was perfect until the school concert. One thing R’meo really likes besides academics is music so he decided to form a band with his classmates and joined the concert. JullyET had a band participating in the concert too. So they both competed in the battle of the bands. Everyone knew how good jullyET’s band is, that’s why everyone’s expecting them to win. But the science program had R’meo’s band which they believed would be better. And which band won? It was R’meo’s. All the students were shocked about it. Some say it was all a deal because the judges were in the science program’s side. Outside the school, his band was bragging about it knowing that the men of jullyET’s band were there. They were starting to fight. R’meo tried to get his self away from the fight but Tybalt, the lead guitarist of the band and the superior musician of the arts program, started insulting him. At first he didn’t mind at all but Tybalt started insulting R’meo’s brother, a very well known musician in the school who ended up studying in US. R’meo lost his control over his anger and fought with them. The school guards saw them and were sent to the principal’s office. Both sides were suspended.
The program wars made R’meo and jullyET set apart. JullyET’s mentor and co-artists knew about how often she meets with him. They both have no choice but to separate.
It had been months, they missed each other but they kept what they feel and started moving on. JullyET met other men in the other regions, same artists as she is. Its not official relationship or whatever but jullyET tried dating other men in favor of their mentor. On the other side, R’meo concentrated on his studies like before. He was often the school representative in many academically related contests and brought so many honors for the school.
It’s almost a year since they last talked about separating. JullyET have been so curious about things and tried it. She had past relationships since R’meo while started dating girls from other schools. It was even hard to imagine how they have known each other before.
One night, she broke up with her current “boyfriend” for he was after all a jerk. R’meo and his family just moved to a new home near jullyET’s. She was on her blades when she saw R’meo with his bike roaming around the nearest subdivision where jullyET lives. He noticed her eyes, like he never saw it in pain before. JullyET, as always tried to hide what she felt and tried to open a normal talk with him. R’meo had to ignore her but he felt something looking in her eyes. He just tried to be as friendly as he can be with her, until he had enough. He asked her what happened and why she’s in deep pain. And as expected she denied what he thought she was. But of all people, R’meo is the only one who can make her spill out what’s inside her.
They went to a mountain near the subdivision. He made jullyET shout and cry at the top of his anger. It was more than the break up. She can’t resist but open up everything to him. Since then, they trusted each other again. R’meo realized how jullyET needs him, like an older brother or something. Every time jullyET felt bad about something, R’meo has always been there until they both got used to it, like they needed each other. It was pure friendship, like what they were before.
The program wars made R’meo and jullyET set apart. JullyET’s mentor and co-artists knew about how often she meets with him. They both have no choice but to separate.
It had been months, they missed each other but they kept what they feel and started moving on. JullyET met other men in the other regions, same artists as she is. Its not official relationship or whatever but jullyET tried dating other men in favor of their mentor. On the other side, R’meo concentrated on his studies like before. He was often the school representative in many academically related contests and brought so many honors for the school.
It’s almost a year since they last talked about separating. JullyET have been so curious about things and tried it. She had past relationships since R’meo while started dating girls from other schools. It was even hard to imagine how they have known each other before.
One night, she broke up with her current “boyfriend” for he was after all a jerk. R’meo and his family just moved to a new home near jullyET’s. She was on her blades when she saw R’meo with his bike roaming around the nearest subdivision where jullyET lives. He noticed her eyes, like he never saw it in pain before. JullyET, as always tried to hide what she felt and tried to open a normal talk with him. R’meo had to ignore her but he felt something looking in her eyes. He just tried to be as friendly as he can be with her, until he had enough. He asked her what happened and why she’s in deep pain. And as expected she denied what he thought she was. But of all people, R’meo is the only one who can make her spill out what’s inside her.
They went to a mountain near the subdivision. He made jullyET shout and cry at the top of his anger. It was more than the break up. She can’t resist but open up everything to him. Since then, they trusted each other again. R’meo realized how jullyET needs him, like an older brother or something. Every time jullyET felt bad about something, R’meo has always been there until they both got used to it, like they needed each other. It was pure friendship, like what they were before.
curiosity matters haha :p
I don’t know if I’m really myself right now but its bothering me so much. I am actually researching about the true meaning of Love. For the past few days, months, I’ve been thinking about it. Someone told me that Young Love doesn’t exist. But someone else is pointing out to me how real it is. It makes me so confused you know hehe. So here I tried researching about it haha. They all say, there’s no exact definition of love. You just have to feel it so you would understand yourself. But why not give it a try right? I mean I can see some meanings and try to relate with it ehe.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love
Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction
. . .
As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings
That would still be hard to understand. They just used formal words to explain it.
Well I guess for now I have to stick to what I believe until I feel it. There are so much in this world that I still have to know. I’m 16 and I believe it’s too early for me to understand this.
But still, I will stay curious about what Ralph’s perspective and Karl’s feelings for me. I have always believed Ralph, but the way Karl tried to convince me, I felt something. There’s no word for it but it made me very curious about it. very much curious.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love
Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction
. . .
As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings
That would still be hard to understand. They just used formal words to explain it.
Well I guess for now I have to stick to what I believe until I feel it. There are so much in this world that I still have to know. I’m 16 and I believe it’s too early for me to understand this.
But still, I will stay curious about what Ralph’s perspective and Karl’s feelings for me. I have always believed Ralph, but the way Karl tried to convince me, I felt something. There’s no word for it but it made me very curious about it. very much curious.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
R'meo and jullyET: my version CHAPTER 2
No one ever thought that after that pageant and STEP activities, R’meo and jullyET’s friendship wouldn’t be any better. Over-night texting, weekends hangouts, what else? jullyET had always problems with all science subjects, particularly biology. She always had problems not with the subject but with herself. Every biology class, its funny but from the start, she finds it very easy until she got so bored, and until then, every biology class would be her “nap time”. In the other side, R’meo, the “all-subjects-except-Filipino geek” was the only person she needed. He helped her in everything. They made this tutorial thing as their way of connecting so people won’t be making issues about a science student and an arts student being together.
It wasn’t that long but for three months, they knew each other like no one ever did. They knew each other’s happiness, weaknesses, likes, dislikes everything! A lot also have changed. Before R’meo never knew how to laugh out loud with jokes and pranks or any other thing that’s really funny, but every time jullyET tries to do something really funny, even the simplest one, it’s like he won something he always wanted. He learned how to make people happy; he was actually good with it if only he had the chance to go wild and crazy. That was a development I should say. While jullyET on the other hand became more serious with things but she never lost that excitement and childish character she always had. It was impossible to think that they both changed each other’s life.
As they say, friendship has always been the best start for a romantic relationship. As time goes by, they just developed their selves with each other. It was really hard for them confessing. It’s really amazing how love turns someone so strong to be someone so weak. They both have a very strong personality but I guess they both have the same weakness. Friendship it was and it grew to young love, they can feel each other. It wasn’t just friendship, it was more than that. Until they started treating each other not just as friends but as couples.
They don’t hang out much inside the school, they never wanted people to talk about what they have. The school is one huge world. Very predictable but very hard to handle. This “program wars” have been there ever since it started. Yes it is possible for students with different programs being together, but these students are not honorably identified in their program.
It wasn’t that long but for three months, they knew each other like no one ever did. They knew each other’s happiness, weaknesses, likes, dislikes everything! A lot also have changed. Before R’meo never knew how to laugh out loud with jokes and pranks or any other thing that’s really funny, but every time jullyET tries to do something really funny, even the simplest one, it’s like he won something he always wanted. He learned how to make people happy; he was actually good with it if only he had the chance to go wild and crazy. That was a development I should say. While jullyET on the other hand became more serious with things but she never lost that excitement and childish character she always had. It was impossible to think that they both changed each other’s life.
As they say, friendship has always been the best start for a romantic relationship. As time goes by, they just developed their selves with each other. It was really hard for them confessing. It’s really amazing how love turns someone so strong to be someone so weak. They both have a very strong personality but I guess they both have the same weakness. Friendship it was and it grew to young love, they can feel each other. It wasn’t just friendship, it was more than that. Until they started treating each other not just as friends but as couples.
They don’t hang out much inside the school, they never wanted people to talk about what they have. The school is one huge world. Very predictable but very hard to handle. This “program wars” have been there ever since it started. Yes it is possible for students with different programs being together, but these students are not honorably identified in their program.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
R'meo and jullyET: my version CHAPTER 1
JullyET was the typical school sucking girl and R'meo was the school heartthrob and cutie geek of the class. She belongs to a very average family while he's family is one of the well known business group in town. In school, she belongs to the arts program while he's in the science program. They almost had the complete difference in their own worlds. It was almost impossible for them to be connected in any ways. But romantic stories always find ways to get people together.
The first scene happened in a theater production where she had the lead role. All the science classes were required to watch the play. That was the first time he noticed jullyET. From then on, he started watching performances of her group. It was quite unusual for him to be a "fan" of the performances because science students don’t interfere much with this kind of stuff. And this was never a part of his character to actually like art.
He always wanted to know her, but there were "rules" that always tells him that he's not allowed. R'meo had always focused on academics so he didn’t put much effort for knowing her.
One day, he saw jullyET with someone else, which was her "almost legal boyfriend". This guy was jullyET's best friend and fiancé. He felt a bit of jealousy so from then on, he started getting jullyET out of her mind and focused on his thing.
JullyET have a lot of friends, not just friends, even frienemies. She had a very successful career as an actress until some people envied her for that. They made people hate her, unfortunately, these people were very much convinced in some childish rumors about her grades and all. These rumors grew until a lot added into this scam. Mean words against her until a lot already hated her. Some of this rumors came to R’meo, and he started having some second impressions. jullyEt stayed strong but R’meo decided to forget all about her since it was just a simple childish act called “crush”.
A year after, came the pageant. This was a part of R’meo’s plan to get higher grades so he joined. On the other side, jullyET had to join though she never really wanted to. With R’meo’s impressions with her, he just ignored her. Not knowing, jullyET had this “crush” on him since he joined the debate club. The end of the pageant? Well, I guess fate brought them together. they both won.
That was the start of their growing closeness. As the winners, they have tasks to do and more programs to attend. jullyET is a very approachable and friendly person, but R’meo is the exact difference concidering that he had bad impressions with her. At first it was really hard for them both to be friends, but its not that hard to get people like jullyET as a friend. They were friends. Not that close but friends.
The first scene happened in a theater production where she had the lead role. All the science classes were required to watch the play. That was the first time he noticed jullyET. From then on, he started watching performances of her group. It was quite unusual for him to be a "fan" of the performances because science students don’t interfere much with this kind of stuff. And this was never a part of his character to actually like art.
He always wanted to know her, but there were "rules" that always tells him that he's not allowed. R'meo had always focused on academics so he didn’t put much effort for knowing her.
One day, he saw jullyET with someone else, which was her "almost legal boyfriend". This guy was jullyET's best friend and fiancé. He felt a bit of jealousy so from then on, he started getting jullyET out of her mind and focused on his thing.
JullyET have a lot of friends, not just friends, even frienemies. She had a very successful career as an actress until some people envied her for that. They made people hate her, unfortunately, these people were very much convinced in some childish rumors about her grades and all. These rumors grew until a lot added into this scam. Mean words against her until a lot already hated her. Some of this rumors came to R’meo, and he started having some second impressions. jullyEt stayed strong but R’meo decided to forget all about her since it was just a simple childish act called “crush”.
A year after, came the pageant. This was a part of R’meo’s plan to get higher grades so he joined. On the other side, jullyET had to join though she never really wanted to. With R’meo’s impressions with her, he just ignored her. Not knowing, jullyET had this “crush” on him since he joined the debate club. The end of the pageant? Well, I guess fate brought them together. they both won.
That was the start of their growing closeness. As the winners, they have tasks to do and more programs to attend. jullyET is a very approachable and friendly person, but R’meo is the exact difference concidering that he had bad impressions with her. At first it was really hard for them both to be friends, but its not that hard to get people like jullyET as a friend. They were friends. Not that close but friends.
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