help me i need Counseling :l

Its, weird, uhm uhm. Ahh! I don’t know how to start this!

Ishh. I don’t even know what to blog about, exactly. Well, its been a VERY busy week for me (its not even finish!). I just feel so. . ALONE!!

i feel so lonely. . and there are several reasons why I do.

1st., uhm, its not clear but I guess I MISS everyone !!

-my bestest best friend Nandry. I haven’t seen her since we got our year book last month., we’re in the same school nut I cant contact her

-my bff ate drii, well, we txt but not that much anymore, I miss the times we laugh, talk crazy. UGH I miss her!!

-classmates, all of them. I miss the scene when we’re all in the classroom. Kanina we had a quiz in history, grabe! It was soo clean! I was like imagining my high school class every time we cheat in our quizzes. Ugh!!!

-RJ, I bet his really busy about everything., I guess wala n xang tym para makinig sa drama ko., I’m starting to be not very open to him now, now that I know his situation. NAGAALALA DIN AKO SA H1N1! Hehe

-uhm, si Karl., I miss him but., a little different from the others. Uhm uhm. E w a n. I feel sad about him and I don’t know why. Parang may pinagsisisihan ako na hindi ko maexplain. And honestly, what I felt in the past, its almost coming back again. Im uhhh, like, uhh. I feel like I need him in some points of my life. Its weird buts it’s true. I mean, not like I need GOD or my family. It’s different. And I’m sad. . .coz maybe I feel like he gave up already., or should I say. . .nagsawa na xa. 

-studies! Kahit n my friends na ako, and I think nakakapagaral nmn ako ng mabuti, mejo bumababa parin tingin ko sa sarili ko. There’s this voice telling me that I cant do it. they said, only few accountancy students pass so a lot would just shift to another course, wasting time and money. I don’t want to quit. But I feel like im becoming waker each day. Hayyy

- CHANGING REALITIES., maybe it is true, things change, people change. I remember one time RJ said, I shouldn’t try soo much on making myself responsible like every college student is. He didn’t say the reason but now I guess I can see it. I’m starting to be soo BORING. Like, I would rather stay home and read my books than go out with the family. Like, I want to be alone at all times and think of what do to. Maybe this “being responsible” thing isn’t the best for me. I am BORED of being BORING. And I hate myself for that.



No ones ever telling me about this yet but I can feel it myself. I am changing positively and negatively. I MISS MY OLD ME. I MISS EVRYTHING ABOUT ME BEFORE


Aaaaa!!